The short answer
As the wife of a Type 1 Diabetic on dialysis and mother of two, life isn't always easy, but I sure do love the people in it! I blog for free therapy, social and neural stimulation, and to maintain a sense of self while tending to the needs of my family. It is also my hope that I might be able to shine a light into the world. My life is a roller coaster, and I'm blogging my way through it all!
The long-winded version
I was born in April 1974. I am also known as Jenni, Jen, Jen-Jen, Jeffiner, Sweetie and Mommy. The top 3 are Jen, Sweetie and Mommy.
I am mostly a wife and mother. I am also a daughter (an only child), a friend and "just Jennifer". I graduated from high school, have taken several college courses and completed vocational training. I have had only 2 paying jobs in my life, the local movie theater when I was a teenager and as the Parish Secretary for my church at the time for 6 1/2 years in my 20s.
I am legally blind or visually impaired or challenged, disabled or "differently"-abled or whatever you want to call it. The bottom line is I'm blind in one eye and can't see out of the other! Seriously though, I lost the sight in my left eye when I was 15 and my right eye started having problems when I was 18 and 19 which left me corrected to around 20/200 in that eye. I can see things, but it's blurry or sometimes I describe it as "dirty". Good lighting makes a big difference. I wear tri-focal glasses and can read with the bottom portion, which is how I can see the computer screen and such. The biggest thing I can't do is drive.
I am imperfect, a bit shy and anxious. The shyness has gotten better since meeting my husband and becoming a mom, but I'm still a little shy. I am working really hard on shedding insecurities, which you can read about here and here. I've even started my own movement, #ShedtheCrap!
I have a strong sense of fairness, carry around guilt, am usually in the middle of the road on most issues (read about one here), am open-minded and tolerant and believe whole-heartedly in leading with love. I believe in God, Jesus and angels...and universal truth and karma. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I believe in not judging others, except maybe the worst of the worst criminals. I think you can love someone, but not always like them. I'm a multi-tasker yet I procrastinate. I have a great sense of humor. I think I'm a good person.
I love TV, movies and music...pretty much pop culture in general. I also love reading (or listening) and have taken up scrapbooking, knitting and crochet. I'm a quoter. Love me some good quotes! Oh, and I must not forget to mention that I love coffee and wine.
here and here). And my BFF has a foodie blog. I only have this one blog about everything that goes on in my head and my life.
I started out writing about day-to-day life. We were buying a house at the time which was very exciting. For awhile after that I thought maybe blogging was silly for me because I didn't think my life was really very interesting and maybe it's just completely narcissistic anyway. I mean, my life is interesting to me, but to others? So I didn't blog anything for a couple of months, but then the "night from hell" happened.
The "night from hell" was the night of my husband Mark's double bypass surgery when his heart stopped 3 times. After that incredibly scary night I was kind of traumatized (PTSD, anyone?), so my BFF J.Ho suggested that maybe blogging it out might help. I thought about it and wrote The First Step, which rebooted my blogging.
Now that I've been at it for awhile, and I've discovered many other great blogs, I've come to realize that my blog is my voice. My entire life I have been shy and quiet. Literally. My actual voice seems to be quieter than others (not to mention I tend to sound like I'm 12), so people are always talking right over me (including my own husband). It's not necessarily on purpose and I don't usually take it personally, and I am capable of speaking up when I really want to. But here, in my little bloggy world, I can write out the things I want to say and it's here whenever someone wants to "hear" it. Blogs are another way of connecting people via common experiences, or even differences that lend an etirely new perspective. I think blogging is empowering.
So just JENNIFER is all the parts of me. I talk about my husband and kids, family and friends, likes and dislikes, knitting patterns and projects, books....and my inner demons. There's probably not much I won't blog about. I do try to be careful and tactful, however. Blogging has become therapeutic for me and if anyone else can glean anything from my musings, insights, revelations, trauma, humor, perspective....then I'll think that's pretty damn awesome!
You can contact me at jenannhallblog at gmail dot com!